Today is our very first day of the Show Your Real series, and I'm delighted to have my good friend Rachel as our first guest writer. Rachel and her husband Jay were some of the very first people we met when we moved to Pittsburgh. Dustin and I were desperate for friends-for community- and after receiving an email from me basically offering to trade some of our Young Life skills for some instant friends, they accepted the deal. Rachel immediately welcomed us into her home with a smile and a heartfelt wave (hugging just isn't really her thing). And five years later we don't spend quite as much time on her couch, but I'm still very thankful she's part of my life. You can read more about her story, and her delightful kiddos on her blog A Heart In Progress.
And now...on with the show.
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Courtney (who, I think we can all agree, is all kinds of awesome), has set forth a blogging challenge. Let's show our real. ((gasp!))
I can't just jump right into how we make it through a typical day around here without addressing an elephant in the room...or rather, the spirited 4 year old who has stolen our hearts (and at times, tried to ransom them for a turn on the computer) Jay and I have been married for 13 years and have 3 kids; Joe is 9, Bella is 7, and Trey is our 4 year old. On Christmas Eve, 2010, when Trey was 2 1/2, he was diagnosed with Stage IV cancer. Neuroblastoma, if ya wanna get technical. Trey has earned his nickname, Young Warrior. He has walked that fine line between life and death and fought his way back to us every time. We've been told that his diagnosis is terminal, which makes me sick to even type those words. We have no idea how long he'll be with us...could be years, could be months. We just don't know. From the beginning of this journey, we've been pretty transparent and open about all things concerning Trey's treatments and our life dealing with this. If you're on Facebook, look up his page 'Pray (and more) for Trey'!
Even though we've been (at times, brutally) honest, there are misconceptions lingering about our lives. When we meet someone who has been following Trey's journey, but does not know us personally, they often talk to us with the sympathetic head tilt. Do you know the tilt? These folks have such sadness in their eyes as they talk to us because they think that we are languishing away, crying all day, holding on by a thread. Which is not true. Other people that know us personally think that we're in denial because we're NOT hiding in bed all day, gnashing our teeth and tearing our robes. This is not true either. The truth is; we're not in denial and we're not consumed with sadness. Do I have moments when I think that this surely can't be real, there must have been a mistake? Sure. Do I experience crushing sadness/fear/anxiety? Absolutely. But, Jay and I decided right from the beginning (as in, in the hallway at the hospital right after hearing the diagnosis) that we were going to rely on God, His will, His plan, His strength. Trey has cancer because we live in a broken world and awful things happen even to sweet, innocent babies. God did not give Trey cancer, rather He allowed Trey's cancer for reasons that we may not fully understand while we're here. But, our reality demands that we handle the situation and keep moving forward. Hiding under the covers won't make it all go away. Shaking our fists at God in anger won't shrink Trey's tumors. What we do understand is that God is good, He keeps all of His promises. Our whole family has been incredibly blessed over the past 2 years. God has provided in might ways. If you were to see Trey today, you'd never even guess that he's sick. It hasn't been an easy journey and it's not nearly over (Praise God!), though we know it will get much more difficult. Our response to people's misconceptions is that we will not grieve for what we haven't lost. Trey is here today, so we will celebrate today. Our "normal" may have changed, but Trey, Joe, and Bella are all incredible, Jay and I are closer than ever, and we're going to revel in that!*
*I realize that one paragraph is hardly enough to cover the range of emotions or reactions or faith issues that encompass living with a terminally ill child. If you want to learn more, don't be afraid to ask. Seriously, anything. How does one discipline a sick child? What are his treatments like? How do Joe and Bella cope and fare having a brother who gets "all the attention"? I'm open...
Whew! Still with me? Now onto the nuts and bolts. Our days vary greatly from one to the next and it takes serious team work to Get. It. Done. I am so thankful for my husband and we make a great team, if I do say so myself. And I just did! Our strategies are simple, yet they save us time and sanity!
Get things done ahead of time! I know! It sounds too simple! I would rather sacrifice 15 minutes of sleep at night to get things done any day rather than wake up earlier or not wake up earlier and run around in a panic. Each school night, Jay and I make the kids' lunches together (awww, cute!), go through folders and book bags, make sure everything is signed, put away, library books packed, instruments set out. The kids set out their clothes (including socks and shoes) the night before and cannot go downstairs until they are completely dressed...Oh! How many mornings we have suffered through the last 5 minutes before leaving for school screaming and yelling to move faster and get your shoes on! Having them get ready before coming downstairs has saved a lot of tears and tantrums. The kids do better, too. Trey has treatments at the hospital every Monday, so on Sunday night, I pack up the laptop/DVDs/toys and put the bag by the door. Easy peasy! Whatever we have on the schedule for the next day gets as prepped as possible the night before. I even cook my breakfast sausage all at once, usually on Sunday, and then just heat it up in the mornings. Anything to save a few minutes in the morning and make things more pleasant!
Be friends with binders. I love binders. They don't necessarily help get us out the door any faster, but they they sure do contain the endless clutter that comes with all these people. Joe and Bella each have a binder that gets filled everyday with the school papers they bring home to be recycled later once the binder is full. Why don't I just immediately throw them away? Oh, because I worry about odd things like what if, what if, they need to go back to a particular paper and I threw it away??? In my mind, disaster. I have another binder that I keep all the odds and ends papers that don't really have a home...my Ulta and JoAnn's coupons, permission slips, invitations, etc. Oh, yet another binder for the kids' church papers and projects. Even more binders to organize all of Trey's medical stuff. Binders, binders, binders! (My love of plastic bins and labels deserves its own post, fo rizzle)
Start at the end! I have always, always, always worked my schedule backwards in order to be somewhere on time. (and I am strangely passionate about being on time) Here's what I mean: The kids have to be at in their classrooms ready to go by 8:45, so we have to leave our house by 8:30, teeth need to be brushed and jackets on at 8:25, breakfast on the table by 8:10, Jay gets up and ready at 7:50 (he really is Super Dad, because he gets breakfast ready while I get myself ready), kids get up and ready at 7:30, I get up at 7:15 to eat breakfast and get ready. See? I started with the destination time and worked backwards to get it all done. And there's even a few minutes built in there to accommodate the unforeseen...toothpaste dribbled on a shirt, missing headband, riveting episode of Sponge Bob...ya never know.
We really do have a good thing going over here, though there are a few spots that I could use some help...
I need more SLEEP! I average about 5 (broken) hours of sleep/night and that's just not enough for this Momma to keep her happy face on all day. But! When night falls, I fight going to bed! I watch reruns of Friends that I've seen probably 100x, I read (though, to me this is really a non-negotiable), I browse the endless realms of the googlebox. Then, I beat myself up thinking that aside from keeping everyone fed, I didn't really accomplish much...though, that could be the lack of sleep talking. It's a vicious cycle.
I need a shower. How's that for showing my real? It's not like I never shower, it's more like I'd like to shower more often...ya know, like during all the hours I'm not sleeping. I could make a lot of excuses, but the bottom line is that I don't always make time for just 'me' (plus, it takes a long time for me to do my hair and I just don't wanna)...I do the best with what I have and just keep moving through the day.
So, there you have it. That's a glimpse into my real. I can't wait to read about other people's real!! Check back in with Courtney for future installments. Thanks for reading! And let me know any suggestions you may have for more sleep or frequent bathing...
Rachel! You are amazing. Courtney is awesome in her own right and did a good job picking you to start this off! And you and Jay are incredible in your perspective and faithfulness throughout everything. And? If it makes you feel any better, I would have never guessed that you need to shower more often....and given that historically I have most often seen you at the gym (when presumably you are most in need of a shower), I think that's saying something!
ReplyDeleteI don't know how you get by on 5 hours of sleep! (And I never would have guessed that, either, given that you always seem so energetic and awake and put together!) For Lent I'm trying "no tv on school nights" (yes, I'm calling it that even though I'm a 32 year old attorney who hasn't been in school for years) in an effort to free up my evenings for more valuable things like reading and getting to bed earlier. It's hard! I'm hoping it'll become a habit I can keep even after Easter, but I still have to try to fit in some shows I want to keep up with during other times....I may have been watching last night's episode of The Bachelor this morning while eating breakfast. :)
Good stuff right?
DeleteI'm always impressed/relieved when I hear that people sleep less than I do. Christina- I love your idea of restricting TV. I try to do that on and off...we don't even have cable anymore, so that helps, but BELIEVE ME I still find ways to waste time!
Thanks, Christina! See? This is why I wave in lieu of hugs...so no one knows I haven't showered! I would love to see what I'm capable of if I got 7 hours of sleep a night. A girl can dream, right? Well...only if I sleep.
DeleteRachel - you have inspired me! We had a particularly rough morning with Piper today so this post was great! I realized I'm WASTING too much time. Especially in the evening and in honor of this post I created an hourly schedule in excel to guide my days. Let's see if I/we actually stick to it! It's going on the fridge tonight!
ReplyDeleteCourtney - I created an excel schedule for our time. I'll show it to you tonight. I think it should go on the fridge. ;)
Ugh. We do waste SO much time. You know I love a spreadsheet, I can't wait to see it! Is there naptime scheduled in? (for me, not piper....)
DeleteP.s. Rachel is going to want you to put that spreadsheet in a binder.
I just love, love, love getting things crossed off my never ending lists! And the house really does run better when we and the kids know what to expect because we run a tight a ship. I wish I had a spare binder for you, but alas, I'm using them all. Thanks, Dustin!
DeleteI think Dustin wastes too much time making spreadsheets. Yeah I said it! #keepingitreal
ReplyDeleteRachel bares her soul (and her binders) and you heckle my husband in the comments? For shame!
DeleteJust kidding....I'm glad you're here, and happy to have people heckle Dustin anytime.
I think Dustin needs to be heckled more often! Though, I do love a spreadsheet. I had to make a chart the other day, didn't want to get on the computer so I busted out some graph paper and a pencil!
DeleteI love this series already! Thanks so much for sharing Rachel. I am definitely inspired to step up my organization-game. Sean and I are perpetually late to things. Thanks for sharing your real!
ReplyDeleteAlso - this comment-conversation is cracking me up! Nice work Dustin!
You're late to things because you live in the South Hills...Time for a change!!
DeleteI, too, blame the South Hills...for most things, actually.
Deleteoh yes, I think anyone with over 2 kids needs binders (or in our case, folders (cause they fit better) and lots o bins!
ReplyDeleteI'm super impresses with your working backwards time thing. I'm going to try that. Right now my system is "Vinny, what time do I absolutely need to be out the door to make it to x,y,z on time?" I'm not so great with time management b/c well, in our house, someone is always using the bathroom and if there's one thing I've learned in 10 years of motherhood, it's "you cannot rush poop"
"You cannot rush poop." THAT...is real. And wise.
DeleteThe Mitlo's real is pretty darn amazing. So much of this post ministered to me! So much, but the top thing would be not to grieve what hasn't been lost. I am so guilty of "pre-grieving" and it is exhausting and sucks the joy right out of life! I felt freed just reading that line. :)
ReplyDeleteAnd I also felt a little less guilty about my lack of showering. :)
So good, right Happy? I know I'm guilty of pre-grieving too. In small things and large. Such a great reminder...
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